im a winner

ok i failed my learners license exam by 1 mark. so you can assume that i am a bit bummed and am feeling down, but i realised that even though i had people praying for me and i was regularly praying to God myself, i had belief that it was in the bag. but afterwards it hit me like a tonn of bricks: i dont deserve anything. all i deserve is death, not to do well or to even pass, so who am i to start complaining that i've been through the study booklet 4 times? Even though i didnt believe it at all, I apprehended that i obviosly didnt study hard enough or put enough effort in. Thats what it boils down to. walking out of the place i just prayed to my Jesus that i would remain faithful to him no matter what. that means that i dont imediately point the finger in his direction or at the examiner. Its by His grace that i acomplish anything or worth so thats what im still searching towards.